Behind your back

The times I didn’t know you were there

Holding my hand, guiding me gently

The times I thought you never cared

You were quietly weeping behind closed doors

The times I saw you sit back and watch 

You fought battles behind my back

The moments I felt you had no interest

You were trying to tell me how you felt

It all became so sad in my mind

I could only see you this way

I didn’t see the smile behind your eyes

I didn’t see the glint in your wink

I only saw the light when I was sinking

Deeper into the unknown

I only saw your beacon when I thought I was lost

I felt the soft touch of your hand reaching out for mine

When I looked in your eyes

I saw my love for you

I saw your love reflected in my eyes

I saw the battles you had yet to fight

I saw the war you had yet to win

And so here I stand, willing to hold your hand

Willing to stay strong, gently guiding your decisions

Fighting those who would strike when your back was turned

And weeping for your pain when the doors are closed