Ice Burning

Hands are heavy, eyelids weak.
Bones are lead, mouth stiff to speak
Cold are breaths, Ice to touch
Finger, Toe, won't matter much

Cold can burn as bad as fire
And heavy hearts can injure too
Lack of sleep can hold no match
To candles standing in the dark.

Body weary, head thick with thoughts
Eyes close for seconds maybe more...
Lids flash open, heart does rage
Tears run down my face

Passion, Desire like fire burns
But little do we learn
That feeling less can really hurt
That Cold, it too, does burn

That fire quick it leaps about
burning all it touches
But cold it seeps into the bone
and rots away the structure

Hardest Mistakes

I see the light, I see it clear
but how do I get to where I'm near
enough to look into its heart
one quick breath to tear apart

But before I moved a single inch
I look again to blackest pitch
The light I saw and sought to dowse
Was gone without a trace of doubt

I saw the faintest shadow pass
The light beyond just enough to cast
and catch in mine eyes a movement shudder
and a sound, a small voice to utter

I moved, the shadows clung to me
Closer still, though I felt need to flee
I had to know, I had to see
I wanted to be sure to feel my glee

And so my feet they tiptoed closer
Till I found that I could peer over
And to my shock, my glee, my surprise
The light; the monster, had met his demise

The knife, it plunged into his chest
The blood was thick and dark
The candle smoking delicate curls
The killer had left no mark

But suddenly the lights did shine
The sirens blearing loud
The room was filled with shouts and cries
And I, standing still, among the crowd

They took me then, and cuffed my hands
And yelled and pulled and shoved
Among the shouts I hear a cry
"How could you do this to one you loved?"

"But sir," I tried to tell them all
But none would hear to listen
My voice it fell on deafest ears
My eyes they then did glisten

And tears they fell, for only I knew
What none would have me tell
My voice was silenced for none could hear
To hear to listen well

The man I loved was well and gone
A monster lay in his grave
His eyes they sought me while I slept
I cried out to be saved

But no one had heard my cries in the night
or saw the marks he left on my skin
But someone had saved me finally
And left me in the mess I was in

I know we aren't all perfect
I know we make mistakes,
But the hardest mistakes we pay for
Are the ones we did not make

And so I sit here now,
behind bars I'll spend my life
and I wonder if it would have been the same
If I had of held the knife......

Lies need to be fed

I saw that you swallowed it in
the lies I fed into your skin
the softest voices in midnight air
secrets never laid to bear

Touch inside the lights embrace
whisper close so you can taste
feeding the devil is the sin
blame me for letting it in

Let it sink beneath your surface
let it stew until it grabs purchase
in your gut it will await
growing painful won't abate

You see me standing at the door,
My bag in my hand,
A smoke in my mouth,
A bottle empty on the ground,

You think you know what is bound to be
you swear you would never do the deed
but here I am, bound to stay but destined to leave
your hands get tighter you know it's now or never

You hear my voice float across the room
taunting you with the rhymes you never understood
Looking at you through vacant eyes
Lost in the moment I thought to feed the lie

Ashes ashes, all around
this bird has flown
finally air bound
ashes ashes ashes abound

And so you think my end is near
And I withdraw my breath and leer
watch unseeing with eyes already dead
my body waiting to be led.........

A Day

And once this day, a happy day
once a day of joy and mystery.
and now this day, this happy day
filled with longing of a history

That would have, should have
made my day a victory,
now a day, a happy day
that reminds me of only misery

That special touch, a gentile touch
with sparkles clear and glittery
A special day, a momentous day
that lays crystal untouched in memory

But now a twist, a heart wrenching twist
And I say so gingerly
This beautiful day, this happy day
Now tainted with this trickery

But as I say, these awful words
The pain it turns quite bitterly
For this the day, the happy day
Birth thrown away quite flippantly

I could, I would, I should just go
And leave this day abruptly
But this is a day, a happy day
But to me it seems so slippery

The memories lost, the day is gone
and so I must ask blatantly
Is there a day, oh any day
That I would be happy inwardly.....

Shame

I say it's hard to be true around you
You say it's true I am hard on you
I say it's time to fix what little we have
You say we have little to fix

You tell me not to raise my voice
But tell me while you do the same

You say that it's my way or the highway
I say if you don't like it then why do you stay?
You tell me I'll only have things my way
But my way has more sense than yours

You tell me that you love me
I say then why do I hate you?

Being bound to you is more than I can bear
But you can't bear to be without

Shame you didn't see this,
When I still loved you true
Shame you couldn't own this hurt,
so I didn't have to bear it too.

Shame you couldn't see
that what you wanted you didn't need
And what you really needed,
you couldn't really see.

Staring at you from behind my thick lashes
Shame it took too long
Shame it's hurt us both so much
Shame it all has gone

Fire Desire

Torn in two
I see you there
your lips on mine
I hear your breath

Fingers feathery touch
Skin aflame with desire
Tear me apart
Put me back together

Kiss me, Hold me
My tounge on yours
Under my clothes
Under my skin

My heart pounding
My body pulsating
Yearning for you
Wanting you

Tear me asunder
Flame upon flame
Light it up
Burn me to ash

Dark skys

The rainbow that was in my sight has faded with the west winds embrace
As clouds upon clouds upon dark seated clouds come racing into the sky
The wind that was gently rustling the trees now gusts with each passing breath
Making chimneys squeal with a high pitched note, and take tree limbs down to their death.
The sun that had warmed my heart and my brow, till the sweat had come trickling down
Now hiding behind clouds, not to my delight, but to my distaste and I frown.

And so here I am, with a chill on my back and my brow is furrowed and frowzled
I have sunk to my knees, and my hands praying please, though to whom I should pray I am puzzled
My mind is a blank, my poor eyes are so red, as they line the floor with my tears.
But my child comes close, and I realise morosely, that time will again turn the years.
And the sun that now hides will come out to play, the clouds and the winds will've departed
And the joy that now fades with the last rays of sun, will surge into my heart, when it is won.

Wash your hands

Blind to the pulse
unseeing eyes staring

Denied wishes
Wash your hands of this misery

Waring sides
Both shouting so loud

Ears ringing
Each side must have it's say

Wanting satisfaction
Crying to have more

Unforgivable in those eyes that gaze through nights haze
Unforgettable in the eyes that gaze into each others
Unforseeable to those who stand the closest
Unwilling to those who see the truth

Knowing actions have consequences unseen
Feeling the hearts beat faster when they are close

Denied for sakes far bigger than their own
Begging the space that is between them to disappear

Wash your hands of this misery
Fight away the wishes of weakness
Hold tight and steadfast to what you know you must do
For these war torn people must wash their hands too

Behind your back

The times I didn’t know you were there

Holding my hand, guiding me gently

The times I thought you never cared

You were quietly weeping behind closed doors

The times I saw you sit back and watch 

You fought battles behind my back

The moments I felt you had no interest

You were trying to tell me how you felt

It all became so sad in my mind

I could only see you this way

I didn’t see the smile behind your eyes

I didn’t see the glint in your wink

I only saw the light when I was sinking

Deeper into the unknown

I only saw your beacon when I thought I was lost

I felt the soft touch of your hand reaching out for mine

When I looked in your eyes

I saw my love for you

I saw your love reflected in my eyes

I saw the battles you had yet to fight

I saw the war you had yet to win

And so here I stand, willing to hold your hand

Willing to stay strong, gently guiding your decisions

Fighting those who would strike when your back was turned

And weeping for your pain when the doors are closed